My seeds have sprouted!!!!

I know that isn’t terribly excited, nor a particularly good reason for missing two weeks, but it’s exciting!!! It’s really super exciting!!! This is one of the first steps I’m taking to be self sufficient with my food and one of our main goals this year- start our own veggies from seed. Not only did they come up, but some are being little troupers and may even need to be transplanted out of their egg carton cribs into more posh living spaces 🙂

Positive thinking went a long way in getting back to work last week, even though I was fighting a bout of vertigo. I did figure out that part of the problem was that after 5 years, I didn’t want to go back to work, and not because I wanted to stay home and veg on the couch,(although if I had made that choice, there was nothing wrong with it) but because I didn’t want to deal with the interpersonal relationships and the betrayal I felt from coworkers. I have now adopted a slightly cynical approach, but it’s helping me to feel a bit more self-protected, which is good.

Did you look into those two planting tidbits I gave out last time? I didn’t either, but they are still on my list. On a side note, I was making cabbage rolls on the weekend and noticed that as I was spreading out my savoy cabbage leaves that they looked an awful lot like scrotum skin. I called in the main male in my house for confirmation, to which he shook his head at my declaration, but in the end, had to agree that it did indeed. I did refrain from mentioning to the boys as they ate said cabbage rolls that they were eating veggie balls, but it was very difficult. I waited till today to spring that on them 🙂 I wonder how many of you will buy one this week and cook it just to see. lololol I can be such an instigator sometimes. heheheheh.

Anyhoo, on to other things. I believe skating is finished for the now since we seem to have jumped straight into spring up here in the great white north, which is looking more green than white right now. I am assured that there is more snow to come, which is all good, but I think I might actually like this early spring thing.

I also started writing again! I’ve finally started revisions to book #3 in anticipation of having it ready to epub for June 10. I think I’ve set myself an unreasonable time-line, but I want to at least try. I still need to figure out a cover and all that, but I am encouraged by the fact that, after almost a year, I’m back at it.

Menu time!!!!

Saturday we enjoyed, I don’t remember, give me a minute, hmmm. Great, hubby doesn’t remember either, must not have been all that exciting. 😦

Sunday: Cabbage rolls ( ie veggie balls, heheheh) with some wraps to use up the unused stuffing

Monday: Chicken breasts ( yes, balls followed by breasts- that’s how we roll in this house), wedge fries, and veggies

Tuesday: Pate chinoi ( probably spelled that wrong- ground beef with a layer of broccoli, topped with mashed potatoes)

Wednesday: Pork chops in spiced apple sauce ( made by me last fall!) rice and broccoli ( see a theme here- broccoli was on sale this week)

Thursday: Pasta!

Friday: Hot dogs and French fries

Peace out! Make sure to be kind to someone and don’t forget to share that little tidbit about the savoy cabbage with your friends. It’s especially effective if you are holding a cucumber in your hand too. Make sure they aren’t trying to swallow anything when you tell them!!!!

HUGS

 

Positive thoughts

That is how I’m going to face going back to work this week, by the power of positive thinking. At least I still have a job, at least I still have my health and the love of my family. That doesn’t mean that things are perfect, it’s a choice. I can choose to let the horribleness of the last couple of weeks bury me, or I can choose to go forward with a smile on my face.

I have been exploring some new things this week! I found a great website:http://www.walkerland.ca/ . They have tons of information, and it’s Canadian! I’ve also learned a bit more about seeds and making my plants thrive. Did you know that you should cut off the top of your pepper plants and let them grow back a second time before transplanting once the weather is warm? Me neither!  Have you heard of hugelkultur? Me neither, but I’ll be looking into that too!

One of this weeks tasks will be to get the seeds planted and on their way to being yummy food in our bellies this summer! I am also looking into starting my own food prep business. I figure why not combine a few of my favorite things to make life easier for people!

I am also considering running piano lessons in the afternoons if there are interested parties. So although Friday was a piece of crap, I have some new endevours to look forward to.

This week is a short post but I wouldn’t leave you without a menu for the week, that would be mean. I may be a bit of a kitchen nazi, but I’m not mean.

Saturday: we had turkey hash with basmati rice and brussel sprouts with bacon and raw veggies.

Sunday: pork chops, turnip julienne, and kale salad

Monday: veggie chilli with corn bread

Tuesday: Basil chicken in coconut curry sauce with spinach salad

Wednesday: Chick peas mixed with chicken, potatoes, greenbeans, cauliflower in butter chicken sauce.

Thursday: say it with me! Pasta!!!!!

Friday: Pizza 🙂

Enjoy your week, be kind, smile in spite of adversity and I look forward to chatting again next week.

 

Made it!

Yes! I made it through January. It wasn’t looking good. There were many days when I wanted to curl up in a ball and cry and sleep. I questioned everything, from does my husband still love me to do my kids still need me. It was rough. But I made it! This is all part of my life now, this anxiety and the messes it makes in my mind. It often wants to ruin things, but I fight back.

I went to a party with my hubby. There were about 4 maybe 5 couples I knew, the rest I didn’t. It was loud, awkward and …. too much. After over an hour, we bailed and headed for home. Not because we didn’t want to stay and visit, or meet new people, but because it was just too much. Those of you with anxiety will understand and those of you who don’t, won’t and that’s ok.

On a more positive note, I read an awesome book called ‘You can buy Happiness and it’s Cheap’, by Tammy Strobel.https://www.amazon.ca/You-Can-Buy-Happiness-Cheap-ebook/dp/B0090RVGPW.

What amazing insight she has. I will say she is a proponent of tiny living and downsizing and minimalizing, and all those things that make most people shudder. But not me. The simplicity calls to me. From the time I first read ‘Little House on the Prairie’, I have been fascinated with living in a small cabin in the woods. I hope someday in the not too distant future to be able to realize that dream. In the meantime, I’ve gotten caught up in the ‘stuff’of life.

Do you have extra stuff? I can guarantee it, because its just a part of life that we’ve learned to live with. It represents status, wealth, prosperity and all those other things that we have been lead to believe matter. They don’t. Ask someone who’s survived a fire how much their stuff mattered versus surviving it. Sure you’ll miss those baby photos and your favourite things, but in the end, you’re glad you all made it safe. It’s the people around you – your wife/husband, kids, pets, friends ie people you have relationships with, that matter the most. Sure there are days I want to run away and hide, but I never want to do it alone, I want my hubby and my kids with me!

The other thing she mentioned that challenged me, was the idea of getting out of debt and staying out- thus the tiny house idea. I LOVE the idea of no longer being indebted to a big bank and forking out our paychecks to a big corporation. But how realistic is that? Very. Yes this book is American, but the principle is the same. Don’t spend money you don’t have. Our ancestors certainly had to deal with this reality. The harsher side of it is that people died from not having money to pay for Doctors, or Food or due to the elements. But what if the world didn’t work that way? That is a very big pipe dream, but all dreams have to start somewhere. So what if everyone started on a small scale buy not living beyond their means and getting themselves out of debt? Well, that is a very hard thing indeed. But it has become a goal for me.

Another thing she mentioned was having meaningful work. I do the work I do, because I have 4 children still at home, a mortgage to pay and bills and debt and food and all the myriad of other things that go along with life. But what would it be like to do what I love doing? I have spent some time this week thinking about that. What do I want to do with my life? The sad thing is, I have no idea exactly what I’d like to do. I have some ideas, but how they would manifest themselves into work, I don’t know. I love food! I love eating the things I’ve created, and serving it to people, and teaching them how to nourish themselves properly. I like making soup for my friends when they’re sick ( ask them about my green soup ) and I love the idea of spending my winters knitting, sewing and writing around a wood stove while a blizzard rages outside, and then a nice walk in the fresh snow. I love the idea of having a big garden that I use to feed us through the winter with some left over to help those who might need it.

I would love to have a place where people come to get rest and fresh air and a ready ear to listen, while I fill them with food. But none of those things top my desire to be the best mom ever. It’s what I’ve always wanted to do. Do I do it perfectly, heck no. But my goal still stands and I hope that when I’m gone, my kids will have the knowledge and hold it close and never wonder whether they were loved, or wanted, and that those I’ve helped will be able to offer them comfort because I gave comfort to them. The world is a very harsh place, but I want my place to be a place of refuge, and warmth and caring for all who come here.

This year, my husband and I will celebrate 25 years of marriage. We have been a couple for 30 years. I was 17 when I met him and just past 18 when we moved in together against our family’s wishes. We’ve struggled, and fought, but most of all we’ve loved. There were many long days and nights when we were all each other had, and I think that made us stronger. There are countless days that I wouldn’t be able to get through if I didn’t have my wonderful hubby to lean on. There are often days when I choose to love him even though he’s pissed me off (less for him I’m sure 😉 ). But we’ve stuck together through it all and I can’t wait to see what the next 25 years will bring us.

I’m sure there will be many more challenges, but there’s no one I’d rather have at my side.

Alright, now one to some nitty-gritty. The all important menu!!!

Last night ( Saturday) :we enjoyed a Rosemary and Thyme roast of pork with boiled potatoes, stir-fried leeks with mushrooms and a lovely salad made by my daughter.

Sunday:  Spanish rice with beans and salad

Monday: Stew and cornbread

Tuesday: Tuna patties on lettuce with veggies

Wednesday: Chick peas and veggies in Butter Chicken sauce served over Rice Vermicelli

Thursday: come on, you can all answer this one by now (lolol) PASTA!!!

Friday: Leftovers if there are some, or hot dogs, or pizza- something will get served, just not sure what yet.

Enjoy your week! Stay tuned for more exciting events as I delve more into my ‘stuff’ and get rid of things I don’t need and venture forth on doing some things I do need- like more writing!!!

Peace!